first entry

bearbear! this is e first entry.. i decided to write here.. coz i promised to share w u everything tt is gng thru in my life.. n i'm thinkin of sth now. n i really wish to share. n share w u. coz i jus haf this feeling tt u'll be here for me. not tt any of my other good frens, like kaka n jade (n of coz many others.. which i dun feel like listing:P) can't.. bt i jus feel like telling u.. bt i can't tell u. coz of e very simple reason tt u'll be affected by wat i say. be it big or small, positive n negative, u'll be affected. so i can't tell u. n i really dun wan to like skype u or email u, n tell u "bearbear, i'm upset over sth. bt i can't tell u." n make u worried over me in UK. coz it seems like u haven't fully adapted to UK's life yet. according to wat Jade said.. makes me feel like scolding u, why am i always not told of such things? izzit coz i nv ask u? or u too shy to tell me? hehe. i wrote in my private blog, i wun come after u for this. but i still wrote it!:P hehe. bt it's ok, coz u wun see it until some time later. n in tt "some time".. i will noe if u've been telling me things!:P Hehe.

yep. n i really wan to keep my promise. n of coz kheng really wants to share n tell someone.. just tt i can't say.. bt it's ok. u'll see this blog in sometime.. i dunno wen tt time will be. wen u've fully settled down? during ur hols wen u're free. n haf lesser worries n can be worried for me? wen u depart again nxt year? to make u touched over wat kheng has written. (i noe it can! coz i tried it out on yitong before!:P) maybe 10years later? i dunno. bt i jus feel like saying. n i also dunno how many blog entries will i be posting. long ones or short ones. how frequent. how e mood will be like/changing.. bt yep..

yep yep. i jus replied jade.. actually not just. tink bout an hour ago? haha. n i wrote "retarded." haha. e full stop made me read retarded e way u did. or i did wen talking to u. or jade did wen she talks to me. bt jus sth tt reminded me of u. yep. n i really wan to tell u e content of e msg i sent to her. n e things tt i didn't say in e msg. not sure if she inferred it. coz she can be quite blur at times!:P haha. bt anw. i jus can't say it.. yep..

all i can say is. i've sth to tell u. i wan to tell u sth.. bt i can't..

i can only tell u it's an identity crisis.

retarded rite? tell u so little! actually nothing much! haha. so retarded! hehe. bt nvm la hor. i tink this is really e time where "thought" is really e things tt counts. tt among so many ppl, u're e one tt i feel like saying this too. hehe. n dun b jealous k! haha. coz u're e only one tt i've said this too. haha. so however little u noe.. it's e most among all of kheng's frens!:D hehe.

yep. love u bearbear! now is 1645 in Sg's time, on 02-10-10. u shld b in paris now, visiting? n maybe will go drinking tonight! hopefully u'll enjoy urself a lot a lot! enough to make u love your life in UK n Europe. bt still have this desire within u in running back to us. haha. so it's like our RV's motto(izzit motto?), "rooted in tradition, equipped in e future". haha. jus checked. nope. it's vision! haha. actually i forgot e 2nd part of e quote! n went to check. n shall go public blog now to blog! hehe.

yep yep.

love u bearbear(:

kheng(: